its december

hello.hello.
why is it that pretty and handsome people are always so busy!!
haha hard to arrange things when everyone's so busy
only see them like once a year
for photoshoot
haha
so
gonna make the best of it!


just came back from camp.
yes,1am
cos got sweep which lasted from early afternoon till 11pm..
so tired
and sore throat's coming back again from eating macdonald's(no choice!)

oh yay my hair's growing back..
don't even know why did i went to cut it in the first place
HAHAHA





gonna pick up that paintbrush which i haven't used for almost a year now.
since the end of A level coursework.
wonder if it still recognises me

btw heres some super pro artist works to check out
must click to enlarge!












"hello hello,i missed you.."

the fear

okay.its 5:41am right now
and the reason why im blogging
is cos i was jolted out from my sleep by a rather frightening thought

and yes,im scared of dying.
i started to think how old i'd be when i leave this world
who would be there beside me when i close my eyes for one last time
i was really frightened by death

i felt as though i've not done all that i could throughout the past 19 years
ive wasted lots of time
and year by year passed me by so quickly
and i thought
what if death was not that far away from now
what have i yet fufilled
what have i promised
what have i not said
what have i not done


theres so many things ive yet to accomplish
yet to try..
i fear a life without achievments.


okay this is a very emo post,
sorry about that
haha
but yeah
it scared the hell out of me

it'll be as if i never left

MAnnn so busy with training week
so shag and tired from outfield excercise
and theres duty tomorrow! a SATURDAY
sucky suck suck
haha

aniw
dad cooked beef steak today!
mom added mushrooms and tomatoes!

tasted awesome
haha

still having abit of sore throat
but its alright
i hope
hahaha

geez don't you feel as though you are linked to everyone in singapore
through facebook?
well im a friend of your friend who is a friend of that friend of mine which he knows

well u get what i mean

aniw im currently thinking of what to do for my next photoshoot
really excited about it




"it'll be as if i never left"
i'll miss u!

Singapore Botanical Gardens

Silent Portraits: Born to Blossom
Featured models: Chantal,Yelin
photography by: Lai Yao Khuan

went to meet up with Chantal and Yelin today morning!
we then headed over to Singapore Botanical Gardens for photoshoot :)

didn't start off well,it was all hot and we had no water!
haha and no inspiration on my side
but we had fun putting makeup on eleen
ahhahaha
MY FIRST ATTEMPT!
but im damn proud of it!
hahaha

but after some test shots
it all started to work out well
nice photos came coming in :D
really lucky to have them as my models
haha

chantal had to leave for work
yelin and I went looking around for spots to shoot
haha,then it started to pour
surprisingly,thats when the photoshoot got even better
haha had really awesome shots!

in total,
we took around 8hours!
from 10am till 5pm
haha
but it was all worth it


looking forward to the next photoshoot in dec!

haha my friend Nuh helped me edited this pic
haha thanks man :)



gonna head off to singapore botanical gardens tmr!
photoshoot!
hope it doesnt rains!
:)

this dragon is taking me wayy longer than i expected.
the scales are killing me.
hahaha.
gonna take a break from this picture



woot woot
gonna have a photoshoot this saturday
at singapore botanical gardens!
havent been there for a super duper long time now
hope all goes well
and that ill be able to perform well
:D

what love is

I dont know why
but it suddenly came to me
how time has passed so quickly
from when i was little
where i would rest my head on my mother's handbag
as she pat me to sleep..
she would ensure that it was of a comfortable height
and making no movement at all
throughout the whole bus ride

how she would buy toys for me
the moment i mentioned that i fancied it
even though it may be expensive
she'd still buy it for me

how i used to draw pictures of
all kinds of things
dinosaurs,flowers..
and i would bring it up to her proudly
as she praised my work

at times when i did something wrong
she would take this bamboo cane
and chase me around the house
sometimes,i even hid the cane
thinking i could be spared..but there was always the ruler lying around..
i could still remember times
where i screamed and said "i hate you!"
not knowing how hurtful it was to her
not knowing how painful those words were to her

whenever i fell sick
she would cook all sorts of chinese herbal medicine
checking out medical cookbooks
and traditional recipes
which always seemed to taste horribly bitter..
but id get well soon after

she would wake up in the wee hours of the morning
just to make sure that i wasn't late for school
to make sure i've got everything i needed
every single day

she was always there for me
whenever i feel sad
whenever i start to cry
she won't stop me from crying
she'd just be there telling me its alright

my dad had a different way
of showing his love for me
bringing me to places
sharing with me knowledge of plants and animals
sharing what he knew ever since he was a child
he'd bring me to pasir ris park
from the time where there were no tracks
there were no resorts
there were no streetlamps

My dad is a chef
who cooks amazing food
he'd always ask "吃饱了吗?"
and made sure i was always well fed
hes such a workaholic
refusing to take a rest
earning money for the family
no matter how tired he is

with the car of his
he'd drive me to school
drive me to anywhere in singapore
and fetch me home
whenever i gave him a call

even until now,
she still bought things for me
a new camera
knowing that im interested in photography
he still cooks
to earn a living
for this family

i wouldnt be where i am
if it wasnt for my parents
if it wasnt for their love
their sacrifice

thank you mom and dad
i love you both

wah wah
jsut woke up and recieved this call from the duty officer at my camp
asking me if i had seen the keys to the MTL
and SOMEBODY said he passed the keys to me.
SINCE WHEN?!
hate it when people just conveniently push the blame to others.

aniw decided to get myself a haircut.
really annoyed with my hair.
hahaha
BMT style :)



some random thought came to my mind thus i went to sketch it down onto paper
haha

oh oh still working on the dragon..lol slow but yeah at least some progress :)